Seem to have readers now. Can't be sure any are Proxies, Kelevra, Fracture and Picasso aside. Thus feel need to keep frightened whimpering minimum. That said. Two Days ago was first time It appeared in highly public place. Middle of Day.
Terrified though we are about leaving the van, we have a nomadic lifestyle. No growing food, and food stores don't last long. Had to go to the grocery store. Did not think It would appear in such crowded place. Was wrong.
It was way some children were acting that made me notice. Heads collectively turned, smiling, pointing. No trace of fear. It stood two aisles away. Towering over the rows, head tilted slightly to side. Stared at it for time. Took another shopper patting me on shoulder to snap out of. I was pale, looked frightened and sweating. Was asked if needed ambulance. Quickly departed store.
Making matters worse. Noticed piece of paper among groceries. Had strange symbol on it. Guessing person who checked on me was proxy. Unsure what symbol means, if anything. Suspect it meant to scare us.
Suffice to say. Did not work. Proxies can feel pain. Proxies can die. Would be upgrade from current situation, albeit not welcome one. Not that I would complain about killing proxies. Want to do something that hurts Dumah. Hurts It like It hurt me
Difficult to keep in mind the pointlessness of vengeance. Cannot let anger cloud judgement. Would be death of us both.